Beyond the Dark Horizon recently spoke with the talented Andrea Dean Van Scoyoc. With an eclectic palate of eerie twisted short stories and novels published, the award-winning Horror Sinisteria Author continues to keep busy and raise eyebrows.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Hi Andrea. When did you begin writing-was your first novel or short story of the horror genre?
Andrea Dean Van Scoyoc: Hello, John and thanks for the opportunity to be interviewed by you. I have been my own person, never quite fitting into this world and always meandering to my own drummer, so creativity has never been a stranger to me. With that said, I can’t remember a time as a child, when I wasn’t making up some kind of world to live in, crafting my own scenarios (as if I were filming a movie) and trying my hardest to bring all that fantasy to life. As I got older, it took the form of written word and voila, my odd other worlds had an outlet…in the form of writing.
My first novel was actually not my first released. The first novel I ever started working on (and took me 15 years to complete) was The Grounds of Nachmasheeghan (a pirate mystery adventure/drama) which blossomed into a trilogy. My first published book (which also, incidentally became a Borders best seller, hitting number 1 at my very first book signing) was my twisted paranormal/mystery, The Two.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: What inspires your writing?
Andrea Dean Van Scoyoc: Because many of my works are so depraved and shocking, I get asked this question a lot and my answer is still the same. Nothing and no one. However…the oddest and smallest thing can trigger something inside me that will (like a wall being built) require more and more, until it becomes a story.
I once wrote a story based on a guilty conscience! I’m not like any other author and I take great pride in that.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: What would you say your readers find to be scary-what frightens them about your work?
Andrea Dean Van Scoyoc: My readers are awesome, sick and twisted. What I think will freak them out, they love. In my book, A Man of Two Worlds, I wrote one character (Rusty – a vampire) thinking he’d make waves all around the writing world, with fans. But did they ever surprise me, by choosing the sickest, most depraved and ungodly character I could have ever written, Kessler, instead.
My works are very controversial. Most of my characters are supernatural and I make many of them (male and female) demented and debauched, touching on subjects that a lot of people don’t want to think about.
A lot of people don’t know how to take my writing. You’ll find a serious mixed bag of reviews when it comes to my works. Many people hate me and my work; many people love me and my work. There doesn’t seem to be a middle ground.
I’ve survived having hate threads started about me on websites, public bashing, online bashing, threats of being ruined, being vilified, ripped apart and crucified, online. I’ve gotten hate mail, threats of turning me over to authorities, have had two FBI profilers read my works and a former cop tell me he’s not sure that I should be walking the streets. I find all that, laughable. Its fiction…books and stories that haven’t ever and can’t ever, happen. I find it amusing that so many people can’t tell reality from fantasy.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Could you name some horror authors that you like?
Andrea Dean Van Scoyoc: I don’t. Though I like the poetry of Angela Ash. She has a unique writing style that I have never seen before.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: When attending conventions, what is the experience like for your fans come and speak with you about the your books?
You have many fans do they write you as well?
Andrea Dean Van Scoyoc: Being retired, I don’t attend many conventions any longer. I will if I’m hired to, but I don’t seek them out any longer. But…when I did, I always enjoyed meeting my fans. They’d never disappoint me with their questions, their requests (one young man put my book Michael, in a glass case and asked me to sign the case!) and I always enjoy hearing from them when they send me e-mail.
Even the ones who send me hate mail…and I have gotten quite a bit of that over the years.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: A Walk in the moonlight presents stories from your childhood, as well as paranormal happenings. Did you intend this book to be something of an autobiography?
Andrea Dean Van Scoyoc: No…I just wrote the book for entertainment purposes. I’ve had a lot of paranormal experiences in my life (I grew up in a haunted house and the house I live in now has a presence) and have shared them with people over the years. Many said that my accounts would make a great book, so I put all my experiences on paper. I’ve been thrilled with the response. It’s one of my most popular books.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Thanks for the conversation. Leave us with an example of paranormal happenings that you may wish to tell us about Andrea?
Andrea Dean Van Scoyoc: Just read A Walk In The Moonlight (in print and on Kindle/Nook) and you’ll have a glimpse into my experiences. There are also interviews with me and my appearance at The Great Appalachian Spook Show on the Fortean Research channel on You Tube.
Beyond the Dark Horizon recently spoke with Texas based Horror director Todd Jason Cook. Cook who is also a professional skateboarder and musician discussed his career and latest film, ZOMBIEFIED.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: When did you start making films Todd-were your early short films in the horror genre?
Todd Jason Cook: I started making films at the age of 8, shooting on super 8 film, literally a few days after seeing the original Friday the 13th! That film instantly turned me into a young horror film director and I was constantly making Friday the 13th fan films on super 8 film for the next 6 to 7 years. All of those films were short films because the film was only three minutes in length per canister.
All I really wanted at that time was to be an actor, but in order to be in front of the camera I basically had to make my own films at that age so that I could make that happen!
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Interesting that Friday the 13th inspired you at such a young age.
Todd Jason Cook: I just wanted to make Friday the 13th films all the time, and once I got my first video camera, I wrote produced and directed 2 feature – length Friday the 13th fan films. After Successfully completing two full-length films, I felt I was ready to try something new and original. So in 1992, I started an actual production company and began directing my first feature film called Evil Night.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Name a few of your favorite horror directors.
Todd Jason Cook: My favorite horror film directors include Lucio Fulci, Dario Argento, John Carpenter, Joe Zito, Sean Cunningham, Steve Miner and George Romero. I suppose that it is safe to say that these are all of my major influences as well so when watching my films you can see styles from all of the above.
Todd Jason Cook: The film was basically born out of my desire to remake/re-invent my own concept from my first zombie film called Death Metal Zombies (1995), which also has a slasher/killer in it. The killer elements are there, but not used as much as the killer had no connection to the zombies in that film. I decided to take my own concept, and tell the story in a more cohesive way, connecting the zombies with the psycho slasher so that the film would have an even mix of zombie action and slasher film kills and therefore could be considered the first true Slasher Film/Zombie Film hybrid. So with that in mind, I began writing the film over a 6 month period in 2008 and then we went into production in 2009.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: You are from Texas, are you a fan of the Texas Chainsaw Massacre?
Todd Jason Cook: Yes. I have seen the original a handful of times and also kept up with most of the sequels, re-makes, etc. I do love the Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Other than the original, my favorite one in the series is probably part 3. I have parts 1-4 in my personal collection on VHS!
Beyond the Dark Horizon: What are you doing when not watching horror films or directing?
Todd Jason Cook: I have been a professional skateboarder for 13 years now, so when not watching films or directing them, I am either skating or playing music. I formerly had a band called Stage Dive that recorded 19 full-length albums. After the band broke up, I have been working on material for a brand-new album of which I am not only doing 100% of the music for but all the singing as well so that is very exciting for me to be doing!
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Do you try to scare the audience in your films-what do you find to be scary in horror films?
Todd Jason Cook: I did not make much of an attempt to provide scares for an audience, until I made Zombiefied! I had previously concentrated on just making sure fun entertainment. But with Zombiefied, I did set up to provide some scary moments in the film, which are really just your conventional build up to the scare type of situations, Except that I would find new ways to throw the audience off.
I wanted to make this film darker, more brutal, more intense and non-stop action! The scare moments are interspersed throughout the film within the kill scenes, and some of the most action moments as well. Generating scares is never an easy task, especially in a time where everybody has seen it all.
My next feature, which will be going into production hopefully soon, will truly be the scariest film I have ever managed! We are specifically going for the darkest, ugliest and scariest film that we can come up with and touch upon subjects that the audience can relate to, while injecting some very terrifying nightmarish elements that nobody will be expecting! That Is all I am allowed to say about the new film, but it will definitely be the scariest film anyone has seen from me!
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Give us a hint of the plot.
Todd Jason Cook: The only thing I can say about the next feature is it can best be described as Evil Dead meets Friday the 13th…
The King of B-Movies, BILL ZEBUB recently spoke with Beyond the Dark Horizon regarding his career, black metal and the film industry.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Your documentaries on Black metal are different than others that were produced-did you intend to take a different look at the black metal scene?
Bill Zebub: I have known the real versions of sensationalized stories for years. There is much dishonesty in so-called documentaries and books about the music. I wanted to give an alternative to the sensationalism. Most gullible people would rather watch the fake-evil guy from Gorgoroth drink wine and be shown with lights underneath him, like a child playing with a flashlight, saying stupid things while pretending that he’s evil. But people who buy my documentary see the same guy admitting that he’s gay. I would have loved to have a lush budget to fly everywhere and to film in visually stunning environments, but an artist would say the same things whether he is in a castle or on a tour bus. If you want to see reality, watch mine.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Do you still keep in touch with those that you interviewed for the films- any particular favorite bands?
Bill Zebub: I have kept in touch with people even from the early days when I ran a magazine. Whenever Cannibal Corpse is on tour I try to make it to at least one show to hang out with Geroge Corpsegriner. I haven’t called King Diamond in a while, but that is mostly due to my respect level. When i call him it’s usually for an interview or for some other way to help him. There were a couple of times when I attended horror conventions in Texas, and I wanted to take him out for steak, but he had health problems both times. I got banned from one of those conventions so it will be a while before I can take him out for dinner. The faggot who runs the convention kept asking me to have King Diamond at my booth, which I would NEVER do. But I would ask King to boycott that convention as a favor to me [laughs].
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Could you name a few filmmakers that you like, and a few films-horror,exploitation etc.?
Bill Zebub: I love the work of Jan Svankajer, namely “Sileny” or “Luncacy” as it is called in America. Very strange stuff. I also love the movie “Timecrimes” which has cheesy packaging and a silly synopsis, but trust me, the movie is amazing. I don’t remember the director’s name, which is annoying because I would like to see more of his work. I think that he only made a short before that movie. Enough time has passed for him to make something new, so maybe I should find out. I’m sorry that I don’t have more to share. I am not really a person who is a blind fan of a director, other than Jan Svankmajer.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Your films are controversial-particularly “Jesus”, do you hope to offend certain people? Do you wish to provoke the audience?
Bill Zebub: My main reason for making films that may appear to be vulgar is to benefit some segments of the population. The movies are not for a wide audience. I make them for people who are free thinkers. The movies don’t tell you WHAT to think – they just ask you to use your brain. I make movies that trust the viewer to use logic. If you don’t like to perform reasoning tasks, then you will probably only like the women in my movies. The other thing about my movies is that there is no shame about my status as an independent movie-maker. Mainstream movies abide by rules and they follow a fake social agenda. My movies question such things. I am not constrained by mainstream rules and policies. Any subject matter is open to me, no matter how dark. Some people have described me as an iconoclast. Perhaps in some ways that is true, like when I probe the early beginnings of Christianity and reveal my findings. Most people don’t want to learn those things because they don’t want their beliefs to be shattered. But there are some people who know on an intellectual level that the religion can’t be true. They just don’t have the facts. No one ever showed them where to look. Some of movies are their springboard onto a path of enlightenment.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: You knew the director of the classic gore film “Nail Gun massacre”, Terry Lofton- any remembrances of him? Could you name a few favorite gore movies?
Bill Zebub: Terry and I became instant friends when we met. It’s rather funny because he was a diehard Christian. I made him understand that a person can be good without religion. It was hard for him to imagine a person being an atheist, but he was fucked over by plenty of Christians. It saddens me how he lived his final days. I can’t reveal much about that, other than it amazed me how he could still be happy to talk to me despite all the misery. I hope that I can be the same way if such things befall me. He had wanted to make a sequel. There were a lot of obstacles, like his sudden decline in vision. He insisted on shooting in 16mm. His friends were developing a new way to scan film. But ultimately there was just no funding for his movie. One of the things that he used to criticize about me was that I didn’t have women as the villain, or as the ass-kicker. I actually made “Night of the Pumpkin” to show what a female lead should be. In mainstream movies, strong women have masculine traits. I made a strong female character using 100% feminine traits. But my upcoming movie has women being strong the way that Terry had wanted. It’s my final nod to him.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: What is your next project? Anything that you could tell us about?
Bill Zebub: It’s titled “Jesus, the Daughter of God” and it’s about a gogo dancer who quantum-leaps into the body of Jesus. Viewers see her on screen, but whenever the camera is shot from a character’s point of view, you see Jesus. She thinks that it’s all a dream, so she fucks around. As I mentioned before, I made the women in the movie ass-kickers, as a nod to Terry Lofton. There are some metal celebrities in this one, like George Corpsegrinder and members of Tyr and Primordial. Hopefully people will enjoy watching this in the spirit of the movie. It’s not a mean attack. Hopefully word-of-mouth will let you know if it’s something that you should watch, or avoid [laughs].
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Do you think that there are enough independent filmmakers out there today-that make challenging films-documentaries etc. Do you see an underground film scene thriving today?
Bill Zebub: The sad news is that I don’t know many indie directors who are interested in making something challenging. They seem to be interested in gaining acceptance. When I first started making feature-length movies, I was surprised by the attitudes of indie people. To me, the were wasting their time. They seemed to be making demos for mainstream people to notice. How are you going to make a name for yourself by following the same rules as Hollywood? And why would a horror fan buy your ass kissing movie? I have always been a lone wolf. I don’t know if there is a thriving underground scene. I’m not a “SCENE-ster” so I have no idea about the health of any crowd. Remember that I am an oustider.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: What are you doing when not writing or directing?
Bill Zebub: Editing. I know that you meant to ask what I do outside of the movie circles, but movies are in many aspects of my life. When I go out I usually have promotional copies. Sometimes there is a cool waiter, toll collector, gas station attendant, or even a cop who might get a kick out of what I do, so I hand over a movie. I’m socially active. I like to interact with people, even if some of those interactions prove to be frustrating. There is a lesson in every conversation, at least for me.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Any authors that you like, or artists?
Bill Zebub: The last fictional series that I read was by Terry Goodkind. “Wizards First Rule” is the first book in the series, and it inspired the bad television show “Legend of the Seeker.” The books are nothing like that show, so don’ be prejudiced. I’ve been reading “Paradise Lost” and “Frankenstein” over and over because I plan to make an art house movie soon. Other than that, I have been reading Richard Dawkins and Allen Hobson, about evolution and also about the dreaming brain. That’s just for my own enjoyment.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Do you enjoy making independent films?
Bill Zebub: Yes, despite the many burdens they place on me, financially and romantically. I’ve lost a few girlfriends who just couldn’t understand the time commitments, or being sort of “on-call” to take advantage of scheduling opportunists. The ironic thing is that those girls considered themselves to be opposite of the typical girlfriend. What a reality check. A few months ago I shot a movie for “Rough Pictures” called “Disgruntled Employee” which was a lot of work. In order to be able to enjoy it, I put as much of myself into it as possible. The producer actually told me to treat it as a Bill Zebub film. If I get a bigger budget I think that I can still find love for it, even with all of the new rules. But I would never shoot anything that is contrary to my values. I’ll never cast a rap person, for example, and I will never have rap in a movie unless it to be a target of riducule.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Any interest in occult subjects?
Bill Zebub: When I was in high school I enjoyed reading occult texts. It was a great stimulant for imagination. I also love the poetry in some of the LaVeyan rituals. But I have no belief in spirits. Good and evil are also concepts that I consider to be silly, especially in the context of other realities. If there is an afterlife, there cannot be evil. If you do not need food or shelter, and if you cannot have possessions, then how can there be envy, or aggression? You cannot die again, so what point would there be in battle? Evil, as you think of it, is an earthly sickness. A lover in a jealous rage is suffering the sickness of his limited brain and hormones. A spirit is not subject to the limitations of brain wiring or chemicals. I can go on, but the point is that I cannot conceive of a nonphysical creature having the same constraints as a physical creature. Myths are great stories, but they don’t really make sense.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Any advice for young independent filmmakers?
Bill Zebub: The only advice that I will ever give is to just DO it. I never had help. Everyone whom I know who has made movies did so in the face of extreme obstacles. It’s either in you or it’s not. There is something wrong with us. We make movies, the worst gamble possible if you are in it for profit. If you really want to make a movie, you will do it. You will want advice, just as I wanted advice, and just as every movie maker whom I met has wanted advice. But whether or not you make a movie does not hinge on this. Perhaps it is a curse. Be careful what you wish for.
Winter Laake is a writer and a practitioner of Satanic black magic. He has published five books on the subject of Satanism, remote-viewing and remote-influencing. He is also a psychic that has assisted law enforcement in the capacity of finding the missing or the murdered, and has occasionally assisted in locating murderers. He is also an avid screen-writer, ghost-writer and biographer.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: You have stated in your book “The Satanic Paradigm” that Aleister Crowley was a Satanist. Could you tell us
about this and about Current 93?
Winter Laake: I wrote a series of biographical screenplays on Crowley, his character in many ways is overt Satanic action. He was out for himself and very much in step with a future that has now caught up with him. Crowley rhymes with unholy, despite many who say otherwise. He was not a saint by any means, and borrowed much of his ‘thou wilt’ philosophy from ‘The Hellfire Club,’ a secret society dedicated to debauchery, Satan and violence. The very catch phrase, ‘Do What Thou Wilt, Shall Be The Whole Of The Law,’ was borrowed from them, as it was a password used to enter their midnight soirees.
Current 93 is, to my knowledge, the engine of life, the electrified existence of all things living and dead. The planet earth mirrors this same energy in a very succinct fashion.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Did you ever meet Anton LaVey? Was there a rapport between both of you?
Winter Laake: I did not meet Anton LaVey in person, my communication with him was through letters. Many claim to have had imminent contact with the man, when he was alive, most of this is ridiculous as he was a recluse, he even shunned his own family and close friends, from time to time. I did consult with him about a book I wrote, but he disliked it and rated it poorly, which I needed at the time, because he was right, I needed to express myself more articulately and accurately, avoiding nonsensical innuendo. Anton LaVey in his later years was being ravaged by lawsuits, he was a man of great character, despite what some believe. His books are in print and have sold millions of copies. I don’t think he’ll be going out of print anytime soon.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: How has belief and interest in Satanism changed since the 1970′s till today?
Winter Laake: Satanism is the fastest growing religion, if you can call it that, in the world. It has changed with its frequency and acceptance within the public global spectrum. Satanism is not seen as some bunk ideology of losers anymore, it’s a real threat to sheeple conditioning and will continue to be. Many more people are coming to a Satanic worldview than ever before. Satanism has also manifested into various belief systems within it, whether theistic (devil worship), Atheistic (self-worship), or Luciferian (Illuminati Aryanism). All three of these archtypes require more study than what can be given here, but I write extensively about it in my books, which can be found virtually everywhere, to this end it must be known that all of these ‘ways of Satanism’ are a part, in my ovation (opinion) ‘The Left Hand Path.’ For I feel that mankind is inherently evil and humanity is finding its way back to what it truly is, a universal Satanic consciousness.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Which magical books did you find the most useful, during your early years?
Winter Laake: I’m going to be honest, ‘I had to write my own Satanic black magic.’ I guess that’s arrogance, but I really have no ego in the matter. I did, of course, follow the writings of Anton LaVey, (Satanic Bible/ Satanic Rituals), but I created my own discourse with Satan, on my own terms, oddly enough… I can also say that none of that early magical writings, on my part has survived, most of what I accomplished, in writing of my own books on the topic of Satanism and black magic has
been within the past two years.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Are you a reader of the books of Arthur Machen, Dennis Wheatley and H.P. Lovecraft?
Winter Laake: Yes, all of the above! I am currently on the footfalls of H.P. Lovecraft the most. There is so much more to the man than meets the eye. I am going to do a documentary entitled ‘On The Trail of H.P. Lovecraft, mostly for my own enjoyment, in 2012. It will be about the triangle between Houdinii, Sonia Green and himself. Also, Wheatley was a wiley character too, ever since I retired at the age of thirty years old, I spent one summer doing alot of reading of his books, and watching the knock off movies, such as (The Devil Rides Out), which is a blast.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Have you ever practiced Chaos Magic? Could you tell us a little about what Chaos Magic is?
Winter Laake: The purveyors of chaos magic are very whimsical, I do think it is a focused energy manipulation, or the destroying and remaking of oneself on many different magical levels. Chaos magic takes the physical, mental and spiritual individual and tears him/her to pieces in order to reframe it into some kind of demonic entity. I could clearly be wrong here, but everything about it seems so self-destructive with alien infiltrating overtones, (that which does not kill us, makes us stronger). Peter Carrol has written alot on the topic. I am sure he will correct me accordingly.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Could you tell us the difference between Theistic Satanism and Lavey Satanism?
Winter Laake: Theistic is the worship of exterior Satanic powers and the acceptance of the equality and oneness with them. LaVey spoke (wrote) only of self-worship (aethiestic) or self-deistic forms of Satanic thought. It was more an aesthtic, than a real entity to him. I am in all places at once with Satanism, but I am a member of ‘The Church Of Satan.’
Beyond the Dark Horizon: What inspires you to write?
Winter Laake: Inspired or cursed, writing is hard, but I’m good at it. I love to convey a message, I am compelled to do so because I feel that I would be wasting a talent not to be doing it. Again, there is no ego here, I hate meeting writers/ philosophers that suffer from arm-chair-ism and getting into some tawdry bitch fight over some grain of thought, which will not make the world spin any faster. I write for me and the furtherance of my belief. There are so many threats to free speech, the impinging doom of Islamism, which I despise, being one of them.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Do you have an interest in Vampirism?
Winter Laake: Vampireism has been going to a whole other level recently, at least in the past 50 years. What seemed to be taboo, blood drinking, has become mainstream. It’s a multi-million dollar business. Yes, I am tottally into it! I write (ghost write) on the topic avidly.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Who is your favorite author in the field of Vampire or Gothic novels?
Winter Laake: Don’t really have one? I used to like Ann Rice before the born again Christian thing.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: What projects are currently in the works? Are you writing a new screenplay?
Winter Laake: Yes, I write screenplays for a living. I am a member of the writers guild west in Los Angeles. I have a pretty extensive personal catalog, because again, I am motivated by what I want to see in cinema. However, no one knows who the writers are, only the actors and directors get noteriety, that’s fine, I love Hollyweird.
Beyond the Dark Horizon: Could you tell us how your interest in Satanism and Magic began?
Winter Laake: As a child I experienced everything supernatural, bats, cats and flying aliens, maybe it was all in my head, but as I say, the devil is not under your bed, he’s in your head!
“You don’t get into this because you’re curious. You get in this, unleash a fury and fight for your place. This has to be your dream or you won’t make it. You have to live for it.”
The twisted creature of darkness, Gwendolyn Eve Hill fetish pinup doll talks about the world of alternative modeling, exotic dancing, metal and more.
Tell us about yourself. What is the backstory behind your model alias, Gwendolyn Eve Hill, Fetish Pinup Doll?
Ah, people never tire of hearing that story! I’ve been a dancer for almost 12 years. I used to dance by the name Raven because I always wore black, had black hair, was extremely gothic, etc.. I found myself in a new club that already had a Raven so I had to choose a different name which was weird for me because to me that was my name. I had ceased to use my real name years before this. The only thing I could think of was to have the group of strangers that were my new-found coworkers pick a new name for me. Names were thrown at me and they flew right over my head until I heard the name Gwen. I remember saying, “Hey, everyone stop! What was that name?” It just FELT like my name. Eve Hill is simply a play on the word Evil (which no one gets, by the way.) Gwendolyn Eve Hill was born.
What would you say is controversial or unique about yourself?
I don’t know any alt/fetish models that have a background in exotic dancing. I think that brings a certain amount of “raunch” to my style that I cannot and have no desire to control. I’ve been told it’s off putting by some but most just love it. I don’t do porn. I model with porn on my brain. I’m not trying to do artistic. I don’t want to be sexy. I want to be sex. And I absolutely love challenging what people think when they think about sex.
Fascinated with blood, fetish and metal, how do you intertwine these concepts with your work?
Fetish is just something that I simply am. I can’t not model fetish. No matter how vanilla I try to make a photo shoot, there it is. Blood? I don’t even know how to explain it. I’ve actually engaged in bloodletting and there is something so intimate, personal and fucking arousing about it. I love the way it tastes, the way it smells, the way it feels sticky under my fingers. Even though we deal mostly in fake blood, I can’t help but notice that a hot chick covered in blood (fake or otherwise) is just way hotter. That’s the appeal of horror movies to me. I just love the blood. Metal? I think the link between metal, fetish and blood is clear as a bell. I am a total metalhead and to me the three just coexists peacefully and have always done so. Tell me Alice Cooper, Marilyn Manson, Rob Zombie, Godhead and fucking Ozzy didn’t do this long before I came around!
Censorship must be a huge issue that cuts in on your work from time to time. How do you deal with this issue?
It used to. Now I have a free website where you can see previews of what’s to come when my pay site, Missevil.net, is launched and I’m also a Zivity model, where I am ruling the site with my photos! Zivity is an amazing community where you can see uncensored photos from the likes of models like Mosh, Jade Vixen, Apnea and myself to name a few.
Being a live performer and sharing the stage with black metal act, Immolith, what has the experience been like?
Fucking amazing. Those dudes are the coolest guys ever and they really gave me my opening as far as performing with bands is concerned. All the things I just adore in life came together in the shows I did with them. I got to wear all my fetish gear, be dragged out on my hands and knees from a collar and leash, tied to a cross, whipped and “murdered” in front of a live audience who was screaming for my blood! It was orgasmic. To this day, no other live performance has compared to the shows I’ve done with them. My panties were soaked after those shows! Shout out to Greg Isiamon for picking me and popping my cherry!
“I’m a twisted creature of darkness.” Elaborate on this quote.
I hate to take the easy way out of this question but that’s something that can only be experienced. It can’t be explained.
What can we expect to see from a performance of your show?
You can expect nothing but prepared professionalism, but more so, me enjoying myself. I don’t do anything I don’t absolutely love which is why I’ve never worked in an office, but I’ve always been one to follow my passions. I’m an artist. I always have been and I always will be. You will never see me going through the motions just to get through a show. I’m loving every minute of it. And I have a great sense of theatrics. I’m a convincing actress and I just swallow up any chance to perform in front of a crowd. I truly feed off the crowd and I’m in love with performing. It’s my calling.
What goes through your mind when on stage?
The music. I’m actually known for performing with my eyes closed. Yes, upside down pole tricks included. Don’t get me wrong, I do make eye contact with my audience, but I have moments where I just sink into the music, it becomes a part of me, it’s flowing through my veins and I can’t separate myself from it. I’m genuinely not there during those moments. I’m in the song. I’ve been told it’s a sight to behold and that I should see what I look like in the grasp of such a moment.
Are there any fetishes that you don’t find appealing?
I refuse to answer that because I respect everyone’s choices and I would never want my fetishes to be judged.
Pinup and fetish is part of the mainstream/underground culture, but where do you see the future pinup doll?
Part of mainstream culture? Yes. But not authentic. Beyonce in ballet boots in a music video is a weak representation of fetish style or culture. It’s being borrowed and raped by mainstream but it will never truly be so because mainstream can’t handle it. The lifestyle is not for everyone. Anyone can “act” fetish but can you live it? Mainstream by definition implies watered down. You want the real thing? Get away from mainstream.
What kind of music do you like?
That’s a broad question. I like metal, rock, industrial and gothic to name a few genres. It depends on my mood.
Outside of modeling, what do you like to do for fun?
I am an eternal party girl. I’m the one who knows everyone at the bar. Other than that, honestly, I’m a nature lover. I lived in WA for a few years and there was nothing more beautiful than all the natural landscaping and wildlife. I hiked many mountains while I lived there. When I first moved back to NYC after many years, I went to Central Park every day for months. It was spiritual. I also am always reading about 3 books at a time. If I don’t have something to read, I will annoy you by reading your DVD player manual, your shampoo bottle, fuck, even the instructions on a tube of Preparation H. I NEED to read. My mind just demands it.
Do you have any advice for gals out there who would like to start a career in alternative modeling?
This is a tough industry. You don’t get into this because you’re curious. You get in this, unleash a fury and fight for your place. This has to be your dream or you won’t make it. You have to live for it. Be aggressive and assertive. Don’t be afraid to put your name out there. Practice in front of mirrors. Be able to look at your face and body objectively as the tools of your trade. Shoot! Shoot! Shoot! That’s the only way you will learn how to do this and if you can do this.
What made you choose art modeling over commercial modeling? Or do you do both?
I don’t really care for commercial modeling. I’m much more interested in sharing a piece of my soul than selling a product. Now if the product is something that happens to be a piece of my soul then there you have it! But I want to create art and express myself, not sell merchandise.
Is nudity essential to fetish modeling? Is it essential to a fine art model’s portfolio?
No and no. Fetish modeling is simply accentuating and exaggerating what is feminine. It is sexual and sensual, but that does not require nudity. Fine art is usually nude but need not necessarily be so either.
Do you consider yourself a confident woman? How do you keep yourself feeling sexy so that you are fearless in your photo shoots?
Yes I am definitely confident. I think that’s because I’m not trying to be the prettiest thing out there. I’m not intimidated by girls that are “hotter” than me. I am comfortable in my skin. Of course there are things about my body that I don’t like, just like any other woman, but I’ve either decided to do something about it or accept it the way it is and move on. I don’t obsess. Plus, I know I am a very talented model which counts for a lot more than looks. I know what I’m doing and I love doing it so much.
Some view fetish photography as “just porn” or a career with no artistic value. What are your thoughts on these issues and all the negative insight in the field?
Sure, feel free to feel however you want about it. I don’t concern myself with negativity. I’m here for my fans and not to defend myself. I don’t even care if what I do is considered porn. So be it. I love it and if my job makes me a porn star or a whore, then I guess that’s what I am. I don’t really feel the need to label or over analyze it and certainly not to apologize for it.
What’s the most difficult aspect of your job?
I would have to say the non-artistic aspect of being a model. You know, the networking, the hustling. Most fetish models are not agency represented so we have to find our own work or promote our own brand. It can be grueling and costly. It’s a big world and everyone wants their 15 minutes so it can take a lot of blood, sweat and tears to make it.
The only one you have to live with 24 hours a day is yourself. Know yourself and be yourself.
Let me start out this review by stating that I’ve been to Horror conventions around the United States for eight years. I have attended every Texas Frightmare Weekend (minus one) since the very first and since its second year, to its sixth… Nothing has compared to Texas Frightmare Weekend in the Dallas, Texas metroplex.
Guests such as George Romero (Return of the Living Dead, Dawn of the Dead, Day of the Dead, Night of the living Dead), Cerina Vincent (Murder – Set – Pieces, Cabin Fever), John Russo (Night of the Living Dead), (Special Effects Legend) Tom Savini,(Scream Queen) Linnea Quigley, (Scream Queen)Debbie Rochon, Caroline Williams (The Texas Chainsaw Massacre II), Joe Bob Briggs (Reporter, The Movie Channel’s Drive – In Theater, TNT’s Monstervision), Sid Haig, Courtney Gains (Children of the Corn, The Burbs), Bill Moseley(House of 1,000 Corpses, The Devil’s Rejects, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre II), Stu Charno (Christine), Lou Perryman(The Texas Chainsaw Massacre II), Lance Henrickson (Alien), Lloyd Kaufman (Troma), Hershell Gordon Lewis (Blood Feast, 2000 Maniacs), Alice Cooper, Kieth Gordon (Christine, Dexter), John Carpenter (Christine, Halloween, The Thing), Doug Bradley(Nightbreed, Hellraiser), Linda Blair (The Exorcist, The Exorcist II, Repossessed), Morgot Kidder (Black Christmas, The Amityville Horror), and many others have graced the tables at this physical wet dream to any fan of Horror. I have been excited to see even inanimate objects, such as Christine, the 1957 Plymouth Fury and brainchild of Stephen King. Jason Mewes of the Clerks fame has also shown up, supporting his new project with Kevin Smith, Red State.
Each year, this convention grows bigger and better and progresses in excitement and hardcore fans of the genre in which we all grew up on and love. The fan base gets more massive every year with many of the same faces (such as myself and several others) and many newcomers to add to the blissfully growing population of this glorious event. Last year (2010) marked its fifth year running and it has never disappointed. Reunions such as The Texas Chainsaw Massacre part II and (for the first time ever) Christine have taken place here, along with other events such as zombie walks and auctions of the stars. Every eagerly anticipated year has the expected and awaited film panels and (sometimes exclusive) screenings and first ever shown clips of upcoming films (such as the re-make of I Spit On Your Grave) that spice up the euphoric fan domain of booths of multiple sorts. There are celebrities from Musicians to Actors/ Actresses along with: models, magazines, toys, clothing, DVDs, posters, paintings, jewelry, comics, collectibles… and the respected film makers getting their product to the bloodthirsty audience which always viciously craves their creative blood. Obscure Texan Horror classics, such as the The Texas Nailgun Massacre have also made their appearances here over the years.
This year was the sixth year of the event… Texas Frightmare Weekend 2011 (sponsored by Anchor Bay Entertainment and Rue Morgue Magazine). The crowd has seemed to grow larger than ever over the past few years. Most of the convention was packed from wall to wall and from the beginning until the end of the show. This years’ guests included very heavy hitters in the Horror world. Shawnee Smith (Summer School, The Shining, The Stand, Uncle Buck), Cary Elwes and Costas Mandylor of the SAW series (their only appearance together ever) joined the ever spanning cast of TFW, along with Robert Englund (A Nightmare on Elm Street, 976 – EVIL, V: The Final Battle), Brian Austin Green (Chromeskull: Laid To Rest 2), Don Coscarelli (Phantasm) Angus “The Tall Man” Scrimm (Phantasm), Michael Baldwin (Phantasm) Lisa Wilcox (A Nightmare on Elm Street IV & V), Lucky Mckee (May, The Woman), Ashley Laurence (HellRaiser) and the one and only, Clive Barker (Hellraiser, Candyman, Midnight Meat Train, Books of Blood, Dread, Imagica, etc.) along with legend, Roger Corman. Sid Haig (Spider Baby, House of 1,000 Corpses, The Devil’s Rejects), Malcom Mcdowell (A Clockwork Orange, Evilinko, Rob Zombie’s Halloween), Doug Bradley (Hellraiser, Nightbreed) and (TFW Veteran,) James Hampton (Teen Wolf) returned for another visit. Also, making their first United States appearance were Eini Shiina and Yoshikiro Nishimura (Audition, Tokyo Gore Police). Five cast members of Chromeskull: Laid To Rest II, along with Director, Robert Hall were on hand along with stars of Lucky Mckee’s The Woman (which made its Texas premier at this show). Of course, Texas being the home of The Texas Frightmare Weekend, the lone star state’s local Horror film makers were in attendance as well such as Parish Randall (Don’t Look In the Basement), Stacey Davidson (Sweatshop), the cast of Spirit Camp and many others. Recent Texas born films such as the Don’t Look In the Basement remake and Sweatshop have also been promoted. Underground merchandise legends, Rotten Cotton among others littered the main vendors floor with goodies for the collectors, looking to stock up on their collections.
Panels were hosted this by Rebeka Herzberg (formal Reviewer for Joe Bob Briggs and Writer/ Reviewer/ Interviewer for Horrornews.net, presently of ScreamTV) and others. As always, a panel was held for every major film and those who helped make it possible. The SAW session seemed to have the largest crowd from what I noticed.
There is a volumed set on DVD of The Texas Frightmare Weekend that can be ordered on-line or purchased at the convention from the Producer’s booth. It covers from the birth of the event, to the year prior, (minus the ’07 show, if I’m not mistaken). This year’s show will be available on line and at the 2012 show, which will be moved to The Hyatt Regency DFW. Collectible shirts from most of the previous shows were also available. This year’s convention rags were provided by Joe Garcia and Fast Custom Shirts. If one looked closely, they may have also found Rocky Gray, former Drummer of Evanescence (among others), wandering around among the venturing public.
A little advice for the virginal convention goer to this or any other… It is up to the celebrity’s manager/ Agent or the celebrity him/herself how much they will charge for signed pictures and in some rare cases, if they will even take pictures. Some charge more than others. Some may charge less for bringing your own item to be autographed and some may not. Some may even sign for free (it’s a rare case, but it does happen if you’re lucky).
This year, TFW had SAW VIP packages, general VIP passes and general weekend/ day passes/bracelets. There were also photo ops that ranged to generally thirty dollars. Long lines and waits should always be expected when guests of such caliber are present at these multi-consumed and occupied events. I met fellow Horror fans from all over the world; a mother and daughter from Italy, Film Makers from Canada… and fans from beyond and all across the United States of America.
Despite the slight money problem/ situation this year, I always recommend the Texas Frightmare Weekend as the one convention in this nation not to miss. It will continue to grow and have another surprise for the gore hounds every following year. The pool party was intense with a Human Centipede train into the pool and absolute craziness continued within the lobby. Loyd and Sue know how to throw one hell of a horrifically entertaining (in a good way) party, that never ceases to amaze or satisfy the Horror fans, including myself. The crowd has been peaceful and pleasantly nice as usual. In the years that I have attended, not a single fight or outbreak of crude behavior has occurred in any way, shape or form.
In a way, Texas Frightmare Weekend is an annually awaited addiction for all who have become hooked on attending each year. Overall, I rate the convention a thirteen out of thirteen star. Due to some conveniences this year, I rate the 2011 show about an eight out of thirteen stars. To the Horror fan in general (and in the south), it is always a must see. I promise (like many of us) that your first time will surely not be your last. To all that were there this time around to share the magic, I’ll see you all of you next year and for years to come.